The future scares me.
I worry I'm going to fail... most of the time I'm positive I will fail. With things that have happened with me, I feel like I've ruined my chances to be successful.... And I don't like that.
I cry because I'm upset with myself. I cry because I'm worried. I cry because I feel like no matter what I do to change it, everything is working against me.
I know that most everyone worries about their future, and going out on their own, but I wish I wasn't one of them. I didn't used to be; I had everything figured out.
But when I changed interests, I didn't have any plans. I don't know which colleges are the best for photography, I don't know if I can get scholarships, I don't know. And I hate not knowing!